My Inner self (MAN)

In Hindi we often use this word- Man for inner-self. We use in different meanings, such as wish & desire to do some thing, to expect or hope for future and for inner-self. We are aquainted with three words about a human-being. First-Body, second- soul and third- Man. Actually I don't find any subsitute for Man in English. Today I want to express my feeling about my that inner-self.
I do some thing with whole-heartedly. In other words with full devotion or will. Such work always gives good result. But sometime my inner-self is divided. I become doubtful, wether to do it or not. In that situation my action's results also become doubtful. In life such situation comes several times. And on such occasions, fruits of my actions are usually negative.
Our saints say that you can control your inner-self. It is true also, but for an ordinary person like me it is difficult. We are unaware of future. One step can lead you towards failure and another can lead you towards success. On such circumstances my inner-self is always divided. But I dicovered one solution for such situations. I start praying vigorously, If I am able to do it with intensity, results turn favourable.
Further I am going to say something, which may appear ridiculous to others. To strengthen inner-self I try to practice on Concentration. Though it is difficult for a trivial person like me, but I try. If I would have met Sad-Guru, like Sainath, I must have solved my problem. But alas, in this matter I am an orphan. There is a little time left for me to get some success in this field. Death is approaching me. But I pray to Lord Sai to give me some success in this direction. After all I am His daughter.
--Shailbala Misra.

Value of Words.

Atleast a human-being must understand value of words. One must stand by one's words. Try to speak only which is neccessary. If you promise, then it must be kept at any cost. All this is said by wise men. It is said not in vain. We can try for this. After all we are different from animals. It may take time, but we should try for it.
I don't intend to praise myself. But I try to keep my words. As I am very credulous by nature, I always do this mistake of believing on words of my friends. If they don't keep their words, I get a set-back. There are so many options to express yourself, if you fail to keep your words. Truth is the best way to say your situation or circumstances, if you are unable to keep your words. Sincerity always helps to avoid mis-understanding. Even if some one determines to mis-understand you, let him/her think according to their temperament.
Trully I am not a strict idealistic person. I developed sensitivity with effort. I know and feel prick of a needle in my finger with same intensity, it hurts some one else.
I am impressed by Paramhans's words. " If I say that I have to go for toilet, I must go, even if I don't feel to go." He is God Incarnate, right, but we can atleast try to keep our words. I am of confirmed view that this increases our mental strengh and make more powerful. We are lucky enough to have human- form in present birth. Why not utilise this birth by trying all these trivial practices.
--Shailbala Misra