Worldly Tortures.

I am 68 years old. I am a retired person from the post of the Principal of Govt. Inter College, M.P. All my kids are married and well settled in their lives. I along with my husband live at Indore, M.P. Now I want to live peacefully and happily like a detached person. And I do want to remember my Lord Sainath of Shirdi throughout the day & night. But it is not possible for me. I don't know how I detach myself from all worldly anxieties. Anxieties are so friendly to me that they takes away my sleep in the night. I want to murmer Sai's name on my lips all the time, but some or the other thoughts come in my mind and keep me away from my Nam-Jap. I do want to pray for every-one's welfare. I always pray for Nishkap Bhakti and Sadbuddhi. But I find myself into trap of some tension. I know that without the grace of Sainath, who is all in all for me, I can never be at peace. Plaese Sai bless me with peace and devotion in your Lotus Feet. I am ready for my final departure. Please hold my hands at that time. Please help me in remaning in this delusion that I am Your most favourite child/Beti.